Sunday, February 19, 2017

Don't please someone who don't even care about you


I know how much all of us seeking for attention. Some girl at the outside right now maybe struggle for something, make themselves hungry, wear heavy makeup, buy expensive clothes because they care how do they look infront of other people. I'm not only talking about them, I'm talking about myself too. Yes, we are all know that we are beautiful just the way we are but we can't help ourselves to please everyone around us.


It's natural, some people maybe don't realize that they actually love the others too much compare to love themselves. But at least make it worth. I've been experiences being a girl who did everything just to make sure everyone look at me. Yes, they saw me but only if I already stand above them. They didn't see how I work so hard for it, they didn't see how do I look when I struggle to be one of them, they didn't see how much I care about them. It is clearly they don't care unless you are better than them.


I used to be treated like a rubbish once during my secondary school. I help my pretty and smart classmate to do her homework because she forgot to do it that day. I sacrifice my time just to wait with her at the outside of the class and you know what she did after she finish her homework? She just say thanks and go after her group of smart students and act like nothing like she didn't even know me because I was nothing. My biggest mistake was I tried to pleased everyone and they gave me a shit as their replied.

Of course I didn't ask for a price. But, at least appreaciate what I'm trying to do for them. At the end, I just make myself love me less, have no confident, being manipulated by some people, and hate something that I really love. Now, I don't mind to be alone all the time as long as I'm happy to be myself. Maybe some people will see us as a pathetic moron because we walk alone, eating in the public alone, stay at home alone. You know what, I rather stay alone instead of being a ugly doll for un-worthy people.

p/s: un-worthy people, they are nothing actually, but we see them as everything. Try to look from our logic view, they are more ugly, broke, choosy, unmatured, and act like rich hipters. Just don't be stupid like them, we are thousand better!

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Screw my English!


Since I am from Malaysia and English is not my first language or not even my mother tongue, I feel a bit hard to improve my English skill communication especially when people around me just using local language as their daily language. But, I don't put the blame on them. I just wish people could understand why some people maybe look so stupid when they try to communicate in English.


English is just an international language that most educated people thought that English is measurement of the intelligent (Well, I took it from some quote at somewhere). I know how much important the English language is, but at least those who more expert in English try to give a respect to those who dying to use English even though their English such horrible.

My English also not so well, worst and funny and I respect so much people who not laugh or mock me when I try to speak with them and write in English. To me, those who like to insulting people have the most low of intelligent level because they think they know everything. Why so hard people just stay low and try understand other people's situation?